Watching old movies made me take trip back in time.
I totally forgot how the movie Cruel Intentions was. How crazy but ingenious it is. Yeah I said it.
If you haven't seen this ten+ year old movie, just where have you been?
It's like crazytwistedsadfunnysexinfestedconfusedmanipulative...just...a really odd but good movie.
And the soundtrack is awesome!
Why do small things get in the way of how you function in your daily? Fuck... It's a waste of my time...
Whatever happened to "whatever happens, happens?" or "this is what I want" or "let's make it happen".
Puh.
I know this one blog looks funky. It's the first time using an iPod app so sorry fellas, no YouTube video of a song I would like to share.
Anyway! I wanna talk about boys. And why they're so complicated with feelings. Just a general perspective. Every girl has dealt somewhat of a personal dilemma with them kids, but hey, someone will be bullshitting if they said they haven't.
Clearly I'm not a boy so forgive me if I sound all crazy, but has anyone ever heard of a saying referred among guys? The one like if their balls hang low or heavy [lol idk] then they got the guts to do whatever? Well then...
At first I always thought boys have their balls all hanging and shit and they could flat out say how they feel and all that. But nowadays I get the feeling they're all a bunch of kids hiding with their balls all shrunken.
Hm. I'm not saying they all are wimpy guys, but why do they have to be so complicated. Why can't they make it easy? Here's what I think all boys have the same things in common:
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• They can't make up their mind.
• They want to be with someone and never be left alone. [not that I'm saying it's a bad thing if you're with your gf... But if you're being a hoe... Then that's why I wrote this bullet]
• Confuse the shit outta the girl [F-yeah #1 shit right here]
• Make excuses
• And show some sort of chivalry and affection when they want to/think it's needed or right/everytime they're around their type of girl/or... Hmm..
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I added the last part cos there is a small percentage of guys out there that are decent... But I wrote the whole list very vague and blunt.
Boys often say they want to girl to show them all these emotions and whatnot too, but not all at once. Cause you know.. They all get suffocated and all that shit lol.
But what about the ladies out there wanting the saaame shit from those guys. What about those girls that get a vibe from a boy and think it's playing out smoothly when one day, that boy says "we need to be apart". Womp womp. Everyone's gonna get dumped one day. No doubt about it. Unless you're the dumper all the time lol but I don't think you can keep a track record forever. Anyway, the point I'm trying to get at is.....
Boys=bipolar.
Boys=bipolar.
Boys=BIPOLAR!!!!!!
Lol
It took long enough to even say that crap.
Gentlemen... [ I'll let you leave with some dignity] quit being so damn complex. If you're not, then your girl won't be either.
That's how it works. Ha.
I bid u a goodnight. It's laate. It's pretty obvious this one blog is one of the shittiest I've made, but hey we all learned something. Even though it sounds like jibber jabberish Lol
From neon-red hair to black hair, I'm going back to neon neon red hair. My only question is...what will happen to my mane if I bleached my already bleached hair again?
The fuckin AGONY.
I hate dark hair. Lookin normal like the rest of this damn world sucks the life outta me.
Hmm....
I used to be the girl who had the hair people wanted.
GOT SAID SO by a lot of human beans ;p
Oh lawd...just two more weeks, then I can get rid of this color.
Mann..... I wanna have a party. Just not at my house lol
Eh.. I know I'm five days late but I got to thinking today in class about "11/11/11" and how "lucky" that day..uh is? or something?
Who even said that that day was lucky?
My day was fine, everything seemed normal so I'm not complaining...but I aboslutely think it's HORSEHITmorbidly stupid for people to actually think that day is considered lucky.
Oh superstition and numerology themes... how you make people so gullible... It's only lucky if you make yourself feel lucky.
I find it..surprising how many people revolved their lives on that day. You know with like all these weddings, birthings, "New Age" ceremonies, etc. I didn't realize how much until the week after..
Anyway, without a doubt, numbers and days don't choose how your wedding/marriage is going to turn out. Having your babies via cesarean on PURPOSE on that day is a bit...odd. The only thing that's fortunately normal and is A-OK, is that your birthday happens to land on that day.
ANYWHO, I read over 46,000 couples got married that day... that's like probably.... I'm guestimating here.. like 8-12 times more than usual on any "regular" Friday...even though 11/11/11 was in fact a regular Friday. And like a few people in this world, I like statistics...and I bet you, there's gonna be a lot of divorce...later down the road, unless you live like Kim K and you jet out of the marriage after two months.
I read that an average of 50% percent of first marriages, 67% of second and 74% of third marriages end in
divorce.
That's just in the US of A.
And my opinion about giving birth on that "lucky" day...if you had no choice and your water breaks and that baby's head is crowing, I congratulate you, for the new life you brought into this world AND that you weren't selfish to take that baby out on 11/11 just because you wanted to.
And if you did pull that baby out of your uterus, Congratulations to you too, with your newborn baby. I just think that baby would still be considered lucky if you decided to give birth on 11/10 or 11/12 or 11/20...
My point is...numbers and dates don't matter. They don't judge how fortunate people they are. They don't do anything but show what day it is, when your period is coming, what time it is, how much money you spent, how much gas you have in your take, how tall you are....and SO ON.
That's my opinion though.
Hm.. I probably offended some people. Truly, I'm sorry.
Though, congratulations to the many people that have begun a new life that day. Just don't eff it up.
And if shit fucks up, well then hey, then now you'll understand that numbers don't have powers to make things lucky.
Luck comes out of nowhere. That's how I see it.
ANYWAY! It's time to shake our heads and dance ridic. :)
I always wonder. Do people always start drinking and smoking when shit starts hitting the fan? Most likely, probably not all the time.
I might become a statistic though. Might being the keyword. God, people have no idea how easy it is to think having a smoke or two a day can lighten the mood a bit.
But I'm not saying that I'm about to pick one up just yet.
Moving on ain't easy. Probably would be if I moved to a different city, maybe then it wouldn't be so difficult. Should I box up stuff? Maybe throw away or burn pictures and whatnot? Or would that be a totally bad thing and make me regret? Wah. Ignore this section.
...I gotta get back into religion. Maybe if I start reading the Bible and give up my time to Him, everything would go by breezy.
I had a Facebook for over 5 days before I decided today to deactivate it and one of my good, real friends posted something like
The battles you think are yours, are actually God's battles, so live your life filled with happiness.....
Something like that.
I would say it's motivational
I know I'm rambling, but it's a blog. I have to write how I think, right?
Anyway... here's another thought.
Though I may feel like friends don't exist, I still have one true bestie that stayed by my side since 4th grade. And to her, I want to say thank you. You were the only one that I confided. The only one that wouldn't judge me and respected me. The one who saw all the colors I had within myself. And the only one that I could talk about the childhood memories we had.
Like the day we were sitting in the kitchen when your little sister, in her cowgirl boots, came in crying because she peed her bed lol.
Good times.
I should go talk to that girl Christaaain. :)
Christine for short. ha.
Lawd, my jaw still hurts like crazy...maybe I did get in a fight and I had no clue.
Meh. listen to this song by Heartsrevolution
doesn't match the blogs... um...idk. It's rambling music. And I like it.
So, we all "fell back" an hour. Time is soo much slower.
Meh I SAW THAT KATY PERRY TRAILER!
I'm fuggin excited to see it...
And I saw Paranormal Activity 3...all I have to say is....there better not be a 5th one cos I want the whole series to finish in the 4th one. I wanna know the story NOW.
I have a bajillion questions!
Why was Kristi the one who was the closest to "Toby" in the 3rd movie if she ended up dying in the 2nd movie?
Wouldn't Kristi have the one most liked by him?
Why does Katie's picture keep coming up?
What the fuck are they going to with baby Hunter?
Who made the bargain with the demon for power and moola?
Was it Julie's mom...or Julie's mom's mom?
Why are there so many damn questions?
Why do the guys get killed off?
Why the hell do they just stare at people sleeping?
Did you notice in the box of tapes, there's a set that says 1988 and 1992?
Did you notice it's a cycle and they like dropping/opening kitchen stuff? lol
I want answers. I hope the 4th movie makes me piss my pants.
Third one just freaked me out a little bit, but not as much as the 2nd one.
Anyway.... we all have to wait another year for that shit to even be made. If the producers even mention about making it...
Here's the video of the night.
Katy Perry's, The One that Got Away
My heart hurts emotionally and physically. But the pain goes away when I poke myself in the middle where my breast plate is at... then it comes back.
WHAT the FUCK DOES THAT MEAN!
Hoooraay for DirecTV and FX for making an agreement! WOOT! Now I get to watch this weeks AHS.
In other news, Happy Halloween...even though it's a shiteous day. It's also an "anniversary" for me, but there's no celebrating here for me. Yeah..
Makes me more sad than what I'm already am.
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"I want another day with you"...
So I saw the movie 'Drive' last night and I saw some bitch get her head blown off with a shotgun in close range. Scariest shit I've ever seen in a movie like that. Anyway, I'm on this song's ass like no other...it's the best song I've heard in a while!
Makes me think of my boyfrann Christian.
Enjoy it cats. Cos you know, it's cool for cats.
Just like this song.. woot.
I haven't been committed to writing on this blog as often as I thought I would. Anyway, life right now seems pretty...
bland. Or benignconfusingcrazyangryunpredictableloving. I don't have a clue which one is more exact.
So, I heard that 'Lighters' song for the first time today on the radio. I'm pretty sure I'm late listening to this damn song, but sue me. It's a pretty touching song. Made me think about my life and how it's become...
Fuckin listen to this damn song called Cuckoo by Still Corners. It's fuckin great.
It's a splash of love. Gave me goose pimples all over just by the creepiness and the sultry sound of it. Bravo.
So I decided that I wanted to talk about something pretty...random. It's very common among people, I see it on tv. But it's just something I want to discuss in my own words. Which starts off with....
That significant other. May he or she be the best or the worst to yourself and to others.
I am very fortunate to have a good looking, sweet and kind hearted boyfriend who would stand by me, even through the horrific, mean rants I seem to spew. I'm extremely enthused about it; I'm lucky. Now what about the rest of the women and men in this world? The ones who didn't choose the right one. You know, the one's who use (or perhaps depend) on their boyfriends for money? Or maybe the guys who use women for a good f*#k? Or the one's who committ infidelity? Or the one that I wish could diminish, the relationship where the couple become so narrow minded, that they give the cold shoulder to their own kids. Since when did becoming an adult mean disowning the existence of your children? Is this what the world is coming to? Parents, have you ever thought about you needing help when you reach that old age where you become a kid again, and YOU need your children to help you? Ever thought they they would disown you as well? Leaving you to suffer? No, right? Actions show a lot.
How do people get to that point? Do people not care anymore about morals? Respect? Independence? What about commitment? Insightfulness? Sacrifice? Seems like all that is out of the window for most of the people who live in this world. I am not one to judge, I'm not perfect, but I know when I see the edge, I have to take a few steps back into reality. Believe this. In this vast world, the people who populate it are egoistic, greedy, envious, selfish, arrogant, and verbally or physically abusive. There's no denying it. It's rare to go through a day without hearing something bad. It's in the media. It's among peoples gossip. It's between rivals. It's everywhere. But when are people going to change? Why can't women be more independent? Why can't men be responsible and respectful towards ladies? Why are children being forgotten when their mother or father find a person they think will repair broken woes? I wish I could repair many things I see through life. I wish people were able to use more of their brain than the 20% we were given to use. But it's all God's plan of course.
Does it sound like I'm contridicting myself if I say things are meant to be deranged? Nonetheless, who says it should stay that way? What would you do? Amazingly, I liked to share this with you guys.
2 Corinthians 4:16-18 So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is being renewed day by day. For this light momentary affliction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison, as we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal.
No matter how problematic your life may be, why can't there be any affection towards one another? Why can't there be more respect, more positive outlooks. What happened to love? There's some percentage in the world, where people are happily devoted to one another. I love using my grandparents as an example. My grandfather is deceased and my grandmother is living with my aunts and grandkids, happily. Besides the fact that my grandfather passed 17 years ago, my grandmother loves him dearly and talks about him all the time and how he was a supportive husband and father. ----
It's all about trust, communication, understanding, and willing to devote. That's all it takes. So why is everyone making it complicated for someone else? Isn't the person you call your significant other the one who should be devoted to you, as well for you to them? I may add as well (even though if you're not married this is still revelent) "once you're married, you're married to the whole family".
Don't forget it.
Logging out now. I'll be back soon with some more...difficult, yet hopefully persuasive blogs.
This will officially be my first blog. Needless to say, I'm beginning to write blogs just for entertainment. Yours and mine. Truly. I suppose my blogs can be whatever I may want it to be. Perhaps about my love life. Or maybe my denial about working with animals and how I passionately hate it. Or maybe I can discuss the issues of the world. Maybe as a feminist. Maybe as an opinionator.
So it begins. It's possible that later on tonight at 9pm, I'll get back on and write a few thoughts to share among all you good people. Write to you invisible readers soon.
